Monday, December 15, 2008

The Aftermath

So I'm home now
Friday was such a wretched day. I cried so much; I'll admit it. I never thought that I would become attached to so many people within a short amount of time. I think that's a weakness of mine: I become easily attached.
The Christmas party was a blast. I was going to wear my Santa costume, but it was really hott and itchy so I decided not to wear it. I still had an amazing time last night. I took some time to have a heart to heart with some people, but there wasn't enough time to do it with everyone. I miss Emma so much. She became my best friend over there, and it was extremely difficult to say goodbye. There were like 10 or so people who walked with me to the taxi that brought me to the airport. It was so sad saying goodbye, but really powerful to see how many people really cared for me.
It really sucks too because I don't really know when I'm going to see all those people again. The majority of them either live on the east coast or in England, so it's quite expensive to meet up with them. I'm going to try to save my money. I know for a fact though that I'll be going to England in my future many many times just because it became a second home for me.
My flight on the way back was kind of bad. I was hungover, and when I got on the plane it took 3 and a half hours to take off. It was so hot too ugh! So my flight was delayed that long, and I didn't get home home until around 7 something when I should have arrived at about 4pm. Our incredible family friend Terese was here with my older sister Erica who had food ready for me and my friend that picked me up from the airport. I'll admit it again, I cried later on that night. It's just really really hard.
In a way, it feels like I never left America and did all those things that I have done within the past 3 months. It feels like it was a dream. Like the world stopped, and I did all those trips etc. I feel a little disconnected with some of my friends already. I don't really know what to talk to them about. We had different lives for 3 months, but it's going to take awhile to re-create memories and get back into the relationships we once had.
I have a lot to do over here now. My room is a HUGE mess. I have to unpack/pack for college and find some days over break to bring things down to my apartment. It'll be fun though because my friends are going to come with and help me. That'll be the beginning where we can start some new memories :)
It felt weird driving over here. I keep thinking in pounds. American money feels so weird. I miss chips and cheese. I miss all my friends. I miss hearing their accents everyday. I miss being able to buy my own booze. I miss so much.
I have all this to take with me in my future though. I have so many memories and so much experience now. I'll never ever ever forget these past 3 months.
On the plus side though- I lost a little bit more that 15 pounds while I was over there! It feels great because I didn't realize it until everyone said I looked like I lost weight and I stepped on a scale. It's even better because I didn't even try to loose weight while I was there. I should go back for another 3 months! haha
I'm not sure what else to say. This is probably the end of this blog...I think...unless I think of something else to say.
I'm going to go workout now with some friends.
I want to thank everyone who has followed my blog and given me outstanding support while I was away. I know I could have done this on my own, but it was so much easier with the love and support so many provided.